Failing

I know everyone has fears, phobias, anxiety. I don't believe that I am paranoid but I sometime=mes think that the world is setting me up to fail. Every project I have started for the last eight months gets its funding yanked or canceled, or I get fired off the project for creative differences. I guess I am just having a bad year. I sure wish it would improve.

I have been dreaming that I had to give up on my dream of becoming an award winning documentary filmaker. Spending my life just watching from the sidelines. I even more depressed when I woke up.

....TOURTURE....

Not sure if it is just a seasonal thing or not. I am having dreams about tourture, being tourtured and tourtureing others. Both people I know and strangers. I think that I might have some pent up hostility that I probibly need to deal with. Either that or I am just going batty. I might just need more fiber in my diet. OK bad joke, come on ya need to see humor in every part of life or you will go nuts.

You decide what the hell its just a dream anyway.

The Highway

I have been having this particular dream for about a week now. It's very post Apacalyptic. I am travling with a group of people in a Greyhound bus, across the country. Some kind of disaster has hit the USA I can never exactly remember that part of the dream. I hope to be able to remember more cause it would make for one heck of a book.

Sleep well people.

A Nation of Stupid.

I know that this is a dream forum but I feel I have to post this. This was not a dream this happened to me at the mall when I went to the movies.

I seem to see more and more kids who are for lack of a better word stupid. Now before you black list me for this please let me continue. We have a nation of children who can't read, don't know that France is a country, and that The World Trade center really existed. Now I am speaking of High School freshmen, not kindergarten students. I was at the movies the other day and three kids were looking at a poster for the new Oliver Stone film staring Nicholas Cage.

One kid asks the others "What are the two dark things?"

I could not believe what I was hearing, their conversation continued. Another kid said this is just a movie, like collateral Damage, a what if kind of story. I couldn't believe what I was hearing, I ask the kids what they were doing on 9/11/2001. These kids were like 11 and 12 when it happened, and they did not even know that The World Trade Center were two buildings that collapsed. I know that most of us don't want to dwell on this disaster but when High school students are not even aware of an attack that happened in their life time, one needs to question just what the hell are they teaching our kids in school.

We are raising a nation of stupid people.

The Apocalyptic Future

Is it normal to have Post apocalyptic dreams?

I have had this dream going on a week now where the nation has faced a catastrophe and we are dealing with the aftermath. Basically a severe summer and then an even worse winter with -200 degree wind chill artic blasts through most of the country. (please see map) Now I don't mean to say the snow gets deep, its just that after a real hot, dreadfully hot summer, the winter was even worse. The elderly were dyeing in high numbers, we were having severe power outages all over not to mention a nation wide Icestorm hits the nation. I have been through one icestorm in my life but not like the one in my dream. The one I experienced was a drizzle compared to the one in my dream.

It was pretty frightening.

Sleep well.

The Car Lot

I am in this car lot where every car is a lemon. Most of the cars sold barely drive off the lot. Yet people keep purchasing them. When one particular car has the wheels fall off after I kick one. The head salesman says I have to pay for it, "Pay for what I ask" for breaking the car. In the dream I get arrested for not paying for the peice of crap.

INDECISIVENESS

With yet another election looming on the horizon. We as a nation will have the very big difficut task in deciding who will be in charge of our nation. I belive President Bush has been doing a fine job, with the war in Iraq, and against Al'Queda, we are acheving our goals to make our nation not only safer, but stronger.

The bad dream I have been having though is that we will again have an election that is wishy washy and be held up. I mean to say that no clear winner will be found or declared on election night. Having it happen once is a freak occurance, twice not so unheard of. My bad dreams are telling me that the next election will yet again not have a clear winner declared. I hope this is just jitters, but in the dream it sends a bad message to the rest of the world.

Driving down a long road.

I have had this dream about driving. I don't know where I am going and I don't know why. I am just driving. I seem to be driving forever, and I never seem to get to my destination. I wish I knew or had a clue as to what this represents. So often I am told that stupid dreams like this can mean something like I need to get more fiber in my diet.

But then I don't know.

HOMELESS

I have just had this NIGHTMARE which terrified me. I am currently unemployed and have been for about three months now. In the nightmare my family and I were homeless, and living on the streets.

Now this scares me more than a terrorist attack.

Now I am not going to disparage and talk bad about anyone who is currently homless here in America because its not right to do so. Cirumstances have caused many in America to become homless, due to no fault of their own. Many people consider me to be a sucker, because I am the kind of guy who will help out the people who you see holding the signs that say will work for food. I hear people talk trash about them all the time, and this makes me sick to hear. I generaly ask these trash talkers, "What would you do if circumstances put you in their shoes?" Most answer with I would'nt let it. What they don't realize is that most of the people holding the signs said the exact same thing at one point or another.

A friend of mine says I do it just so I can feel good about myself. Well I already do feel good about myself. I do this because I belive in Karma both good and bad. Many of us are just one or two paychecks from being out on the streets ourselves. So I give not to get something in return, but because I feel its good to help out if I can. We have a local Fast Food Restaurant here in my town called Dicks Hamburgers. Generaly around the freway exits is where you can find the sign holders. When I visit Dicks and can afford it, I often get a few extra burgers and order of fries and a drink and take and offer it to the gentelman or lady who is out there holding the sign. If this makes me a sucker, So be it.

I have such a fear that something would prevent me from suporting my family. Which is why this dream affected me so much. In fact I awoke in tears, I am still very shaken now.

I think I will go for a walk.

Yet even more sleep

So I got yet another eight hours of sleep today.

I have to talk about this dream, I am at a pie eating contest not as a participant but a spectator. The pies the contestants are made of the kind of sick crap one would eat on Fear Factor, pies like beetle suprise and cream of worm. The contestants are lapping the pies up.

It realy made me Ill, when I woke up I wanted to barf.

Sleep oh Sweet, Sleep

I was able to finaly get ten hours of sleep. I feel so much beter, in fact I have a dream to talk about. This dream starts with me in a shoping mall, and I can't seem to find the store I am there to shop at. In fact no one has heard of the store. The store FYI was Barnes and Noble. I know the mall I was at has one and I do know where it is however in this dream it was not there. It did not exist. I am not sure what to make of this dream.

INSOMNIA

Your Sandman is combating a case of INSOMNIA! I even tried to get to sleep with the aid of some sleeping pills. No Effect. I am running on three days with no sleep and have begun to hallucinate a little bit. The worst part is I am dog tired, but just cant sleep.

Help. Please someone.

Searching..........

I keep getting involved with projects that for some reason or another get scrubbed. In an effort to revitalize my status I have taken a hiatus in Seattle to see what projects might be in need of a director. So far I have no success.

THE NIGHTMARE

I can’t find a project every door is closed. If this keeps up I just might have to take a regular job and quit living my dream. It's a depressing thought. My hope is that something comes up soon.

Shopping

I find myself at SEARS, shopping for a new stove. Now I live in an apartment so why I am replacing my broken stove is beyond me. The clerk is showing me all these stoves with fantastic new accesories, all I want is a stove, four burners and an oven.

The model the clerk is pushing actually is a self cleaning AI. The Fuckin thing talks to you, and the unit has a ral bad attitude. Which is realy not a good selling point. It asks what you want to cook, what the recipie is, and the cooking time. It then procedes to tell you how wrong you are and why you are such a bad cook. It even questions your existence.

And the clerk has the nerve to ask "Shall we call it a sale, I can have it delivered to you in a week"

Yea right

The Dream Continues

After a long absence.

A dream about a small animal travling across a large river. The animal is a small cat. Cats dont like watter so I can't figure out why the cat is in the river. I did not see the cat enter the river so I do not know how it got there. I question many things about this dream as A cat in the river means nothing to me at the moment.

However it was unsettling.

Sweet Dreams People.

A little bit country.. Is way too much!

I am in desperate need of some religion..

The other day I had an intense nightmare and I now know what Hell is for me.
A never ending concert of country music. My god I hope I never experience that again.
The concert included Kenney Chesney, The Dixie Chicks, Garth Brooks, just to name a few.

I awoke in a cold sweat screaming......

Pupets

I have this recurring dream where I am encountering Pupets everywhere. I saw a podcast of the Heather & Ben Show, there were these two pupets who keept swearing. I was funny as hell.

When I go to sleep I see more pupets each more foul mouthed than the last. I wake up laughing my ass off and have trouble geting back to sleep cause its so funny.

Seasame Street was never like this.

A recurring Nightmare

Had this dream last week that I woke up one morning and everyone in the world was speaking in the ryming way every Dr Suese charater dose. Including myself.

I woke up in a cold sweat. My god what a nightmare!

I awoke, I Awoke
I needed a Coke,
I was out of Coke,
So I could no longer float,
When I cannot float, I cannot emoat,

When one cannot emoat thenn one has to Aggggggggggg!

Stop it! Stop it! Stop it!

Two Scoops of Raisins

The other night, I had this dream in which I robbed a bank and the california rasins were the ones who put me up to it. The one out in front of the line dance was the leader.

He told me if I did not get the loot then the whole box of them were going to kick the shit out of me.

Its the last time I eat a meatball sub at 2:30 AM.

See you in Dreamland Fokes... Im Back!