Failing

I know everyone has fears, phobias, anxiety. I don't believe that I am paranoid but I sometime=mes think that the world is setting me up to fail. Every project I have started for the last eight months gets its funding yanked or canceled, or I get fired off the project for creative differences. I guess I am just having a bad year. I sure wish it would improve.

I have been dreaming that I had to give up on my dream of becoming an award winning documentary filmaker. Spending my life just watching from the sidelines. I even more depressed when I woke up.

....TOURTURE....

Not sure if it is just a seasonal thing or not. I am having dreams about tourture, being tourtured and tourtureing others. Both people I know and strangers. I think that I might have some pent up hostility that I probibly need to deal with. Either that or I am just going batty. I might just need more fiber in my diet. OK bad joke, come on ya need to see humor in every part of life or you will go nuts.

You decide what the hell its just a dream anyway.

The Highway

I have been having this particular dream for about a week now. It's very post Apacalyptic. I am travling with a group of people in a Greyhound bus, across the country. Some kind of disaster has hit the USA I can never exactly remember that part of the dream. I hope to be able to remember more cause it would make for one heck of a book.

Sleep well people.